Of Goodbyes

In one's life, there are roads that end. Sometimes you go on a detour to find which path to move on to. And to move forward you must close one path to brave into another.

Today, I'm leaving. I'm happy with my decision because I believe that I've chosen the best path for me. I need to leave this road to move on into a better one.

But the hardest part are those of goodbyes. 

How do you say goodbye to people you genuinely cared for? How do you  just wave your hand, say your parting words and walk away? I realized that you don't.

You may write them letters, hug them tight and tell them how much you love them. But you will never be able to say goodbye. Because in essence you really don't. Absence doesn't end friendships. Presence doesn't define love. Distance is indeed a challenge. But I believe that genuine and sincere feelings prevail over the spaces between people. 

Today, I'm leaving. But I'm not saying goodbye.

To My First Love

Hi! You're birthday's coming up. Sometimes I wonder how things will be if you're still here. Maybe the world will be a much better place having you around. You were that nice guy. And trust me genuine nice guys in college is really difficult to come by. And I'm lucky to be friends with one, I'm lucky to be friends with you.

You were the type of person who attracts people. Maybe that's the reason why I was drawn into you. You flash that charismatic smile without a touch of arrogance. It was always reassuring.It feels like you're telling me that everything's going to be fine without really telling me at all. I miss the days when we just talk of our dreams--dreams that are beyond us but we still partake. I miss the nights when you walk me home beneath the endless  sky, I have loved the stars since then. But more than anything I miss you.

I miss everything about you. Your artistic side, your childish side, your every side. You always say that people thought of you as moody but I don't really get it. All I know is that your very presence makes people assured. At least that's the way I feel about you. You have that sense of presence that no matter how I dwell in loneliness I know that I will never be alone. Because I have you.

You were everything wonderful. I can't seem to find the right words that would fit in my picture of you.And I just wish we had more time because I'm scared. 

I'm scared that one day I can't freeze our moments in my mind. I'm scared that a time will come where your face will fade in my memory without a picture that will remind me of how we once were. I'm scared that soon you will disappear in oblivion like so many people who once walked the consciousness of this earth.

But I know you. You live not to leave a mark. You live with the very essence of how it is to be alive. But yes you have left a mark to me and many people like me. And I believe that mark, no matter how it hurts, was never a scar but a promise.It was a promise of you.

Thank you. I was happy that in this lifetime our lives have crossed, in that brief moment of forever.

 I never had the chance to tell you, but I hope that before you have left for the heavens, I hope you knew... that all along, I have loved you.

nikulous

you've come so far. it was not an easy journey. but you're here, at this moment. tomorrow opens a new door. it's scary. you don't know what's waiting for you. but you'll never be at this same moment again. so embrace your fears. hold on to the promise of tomorrow. cherish your faith to the absolute. and always remember you're meant for great things.

goodluck sa compre pars! :) i am sure you'll do great.